Empowerment

A friend sent me via sms a website address. At first I didn't pay it much attention. But as I sat in front of the laptop browsing around the internet pages, I decide to give it a try. From the title of the web address, it's not what I thought it would be. At my current situation it surely applicable and hence I'm going to post a few extracts on a particular article that strikes me the most.

"So life is going great. You’re doing the flirting, meeting the people, and enjoying your dates. Then SMACK! …..You find a guy that you’re crazy about and your world comes crashing down, but in a kind of good way. You can’t stop thinking about him and the fairytale romance you see in the movies might just be a possibility…

Yep you’re in lust. Some people call it love. I call it – rose tinted wonderland or being on drugs…. Whatever floats your boat …

Now let me explain the problem here. Being in this state of lust can cause a little delusion, insanity and insomnia. Being in this state of lust usually stops us from seeing what is really going on.

We are too busy daydreaming about how fantastic a relationship with this person will be, that we cant even see that this guy doesn’t know what he wants to eat for lunch, let alone think about anything in regards to a relationship.

But don’t worry; there is hope. Because right now I’m going to give you some tips and hints so that you’ll be equipped with ammunition for when its time to shoot down any potential ideas about this guy and ditch him.

So what constitutes ditching material?

He doesn’t make the effort to contact you regularly. Now if your ideal relationship involves a guy who is only willing to put 10% effort into it, then by all means go for it. But if you are looking for someone that will give you a little more than just the time of day then I would suggest that you reconsider.

Now you just might think that this is a little harsh to ditch someone for but the deceptive thing about this problem is that we don’t make a big deal out of it. We tend to make excuses for the guy, that he is busy, that something big has come up, that he doesn’t have 20 cents to make a simple PHONE CALL TO YOU.There are a number of reason why he isn’t contacting you. The first one, is simply he isn’t interested in talking to you all the time. It’s only when he is in the mood.

Secondly he is acting up so that you don’t get your hopes up too high. He doesn’t want to be on his best behavior because then he figures you will end up liking him too much ( the ironic thing is that this actually works in his favour).

Thirdly he doesn’t want to have frequent conversations with you because he is afraid you are going to bring up the “where is the relationship going” conversation, and quite frankly, it would be less painful to jump off a bridge into shark infested waters!

So here it is girls. Don’t excuse someone’s bad behavior! I have found that if a guy isn’t contacting you regularly and consistently, that he just isn’t that INTO you. I know it sucks and it’s hard to hear but your time is better spent on someone else, more deserving of your love and attention."

Taken from www.baggagereclaim.co.uk

Enough said, no need to mention what all this about. I hope I can stop dreaming and wake-up and face reality.

Peace & Save da World; xoxo

Another round of whining

Fates...can be 'cruel' sometimes. My final day is today. As mentioned in previous blogs, haven't seen him in a while. However, around 315pm today got called over to the other building (where his office is) by the second boss. Turns out they prepared small feast on my behalf. We ate, laugh and the conversation flows. Only after 15 minutes or so had past did he appear into the pantry. And one of our colleagues points out that our clothes are matching today. My shirt and his are almost in the same shade, purplish pink. While his tie and my tudung are in the same dark purple shade.

It hurts thinking that of all days, it had to be today where our 'personality' become in-sync. He did not even give a proper farewell to me. Just left after the little celebration. I understand that he's a busy man, have to meet clients and all that. But can't he at least say goodbye and wish me luck?...

I know that I promised myself to move-on. But it hurts. It hurts to think of what might have been. I wish that he would just say something. Just an indication whether he likes me or not instead of playing this hide and seek game.

Peave & Save da World; xoxo

Spoiler

He ruined my chances with other guys. At least for now. Opportunities came knocking today and though I didn't reject it but I know that at the back of my mind it wont work. As I confided with a friend about my dilemma, she told me that maybe he's not the type of a guy that goes for a short fling as he knows that I'm leaving soon. Though I know the probability of this statement being true is very slim, still I let it to disillusion me into believing it. Because it helps. It helps me to feel better. It helps me not to hate him. Helps me to forgive him and myself as well. And above all, helps me to move on.

Peace & save da World & Time Lessened da Pain; xoxo

Reality Check

Thanks for that dash of cold water. Since last Friday, we have no contact at all after all the flirting we build-up ever since last month. And it all boils down to nothing. When finally we talked (on the phone) it was all business. No 'warmth' in his voice. Don't get me wrong, he was nice and polite with few jokes here and there but the whole conversation left me shuddering as if ice cold water being trickled down my back. Can't help from feeling blues after that. But I guess I had seen it coming all along. Me and you, not going to happen. Its my final week, deep down I was hoping you would do something. But after what hapen this afternoon, I feel that you already saying goodbye to me.

Peace & Save da World...xoxo

Changes

Hmm....not in the mood to blog this time. Earlier when I woke up, got all sorts of issue I want to talk about. But now after my breakfast, I can't think of anything at all...lol

15 minutes pass, I'm still staring at this window, alternating it with my Facebook. I'm going to give 15 minutes more, if still got nothing I'm just going to post what ever I got here.

Went to a friend house last night and just hang. It's been a while since the last time I hang out with the group. Few things change and yet some things didnt change. Hard for me to explain, better I just keep it to myself to avoid from hurting anyone's feeling.

But eventhough I'm surrounded by all those guys, at the back of my mind I keep thinking of him. I know that I need to close that particular chapter in my life. I can see now that there is no future in that direction. All I need is to build a wall to help me resist him.


Peace & Save da World & ... xoxo

Skip a Hertbeat

Have you guys ever heard the song Heartbeat by Scouting For Girls? From one of the line

"...everytime that we meet, I skipped a heartbeat..."

That is how I seem to feel a few moments ago. My MSN is on as I'm chatting with my friends. As I was busy with my FB, I ignored most of the blinking light at the bottom bar. But at one glance I saw that the blinking part has his (the guy I was talking about below) MSN nick on it and I have this weird sensation in my chest. It is as if someone giving me a suprise by standing behind the door. My mood immediately lifted and I clicked on the blinking bar as fast as I can. He typed only one line of Q. I answered in two lines. But as I eagerly awaited for his reply, I realized that he already appeared offline. Still I waited, hoping that he would reply.

But that was almost 30 mnts ago. And here I am sitting in front of the laptop, waiting for him. My mood is slowly going down. Everytime there is an orange blink at the bottom, my heart wish that it was him but its NOT him. I think I better quit for tonight. "Waiting can be painful."

Peace & Save da World & Hoping 4 inner Peace; xoxo

Hoping for a better tomorrow

About the story below, I will continue it next time. First I want to let out this frustration that I have inside my chest. I LIKE A GUY FROM WORK. He 'seems' to like me also but since last Friday, there were very little contact between me and him. Yesterday, I was a bit upset as I was in a little bit of 'pain'. Told him about it and expecting empathy but got nothing, he just made joke about it. Cheh...MEN, either they're really clueless or just very good pretender. Today, I didn't see him at all. He even did not on his msn (or maybe he appeared offline) I'm really frustrated. I mean, seriously, I'm missing him at this very moment and what he do? He DISAPPEAR!!!!! I hate men at this moment. Wait...I don't hate men, I HATE him! ( I feel like crying...sob,sob-sniff,sniff)

Owh by the way, the Presidential Election will commence around 11pm (local time) All the best to all of us, may the 'right' candidate win.

Peace & Save da World & Hope 2moro wiLL Be a beTTer DaY; xoxo