Caught in the act!

My, oh my… I never thought myself to be a girl that looks at a man’s physiques. I never really interested in guys with muscle, I like my guy to be just fine. But yesterday I was hit square on my forehead. It was Saturday afternoon, and I went to a swimming pool facility in Mentiri with my cousins. After half an hour fooling around in the pool, suddenly I saw this man walking towards the pool with a towel in his hand and wearing a ‘soccer shorts’ and nothing else. I was struck! I stare at him dumbfounded like a dear in front of a headlight. He is not the type that has thick arms as big as a tree trunk or anything. He is actually lean but well-toned with incredible abs. Not tall not short, somehow in between. He was no Brad Pitt but the face was quite attractive in its own way.

However, thank god I came to my senses after a couple seconds later (and thank god I’m not drooling) I immediately redirect my gaze to somewhere else. As my eyes move to other spot, it rest onto another guy who has been in the pool at the same time as me and my ‘entourage’. And guess what?! He was looking at me! The moment my eyes focus on him, he was turning his eyes towards where my eyes’ direction has been before him. I was caught! Someone knew that I had been ogling at a half-naked man. Oh my god, he must be thinking that I’m a pervert. ME! Someone that is rarely looking at other people, especially men, rest alone has some malicious intention on them. And yet, at the moment of weakness I got caught. But that is not the worst part. (Of course, in my life things always tend to become a little bit spicier) It turns out that the two of them are friends!!! I am so embarrassed. After that I kept avoiding the direction of those two men. But I admit that once in a while I sneak a few glances towards them, I just can’t resist…hehehe. Somehow, I manage to survive the rest of the swimming rendezvous without further incident.* Sigh....Just my luck I guess.

Sekadar Gambar Hiasan (Aloha Resort)

Toxic Relatioship

I’ve heard before about people involved in a ‘toxic-relationship’. To describe it briefly, it’s a relationship where one or both of the partner being abusive, either physically or emotionally. Those that I heard about usually happens to girls who have boyfriends that keeps hurting their feelings and have fights all the time but no physical contact occur though. Maybe reasons why I don’t hear any complain from the male side is because of their ‘male-ego’ or maybe they are more secretive creature and don’t air their laundry in public.

Anyway, the stories that I want to talk about is not that occurs in a romantic relationship as in boyfriend-girlfriend situation. It’s in a friendship dynamics. Of course it’s a personal experience. I have a friend (no need to named name) who has been friends with me for over 5 years. You can say that we are close friends; we share secrets that others don’t know about, well at least on my part. But lately due to unavoidable circumstances, we no longer able to see each other’s often.

So since I miss hanging out with her I call her a couple of time since earlier this week. But to my frustration she did not answer any of my call. I try a few times more and still no answer. Since I’m calling on her hand-phone, surely there must be a ‘miss-called’ sign on her phone but she never returned any of my call. She’s using prima so no excuse of low–credit applicable in this situation. I was getting worried, thinking maybe she’s in trouble or maybe sick. Finally, I send her a text message asking how she has been doing and so on…and still no reply. After that, I just stop trying… I just STOP!

The think about this whole situation is that no matter how angry I am at her behavior or how frustrated I get with her treatment, I still forgive her in the end. She just said sorry and gives some lame excuse and I would forgive her and drop the subject instead of probing it further. * Sigh… No matter how much she hurt me, I still forgive her and go on as if nothing happen. When would it be I be able to say enough to her and demand that she‘ll be more sensitive with other people’s feeling.

Abg di pantai....

Abg di pantai earlier diz yr, miss going 2 da beach..

Beaches

Pantai Jerudung

Pantai Serasa

Job-Interview

Yesterday was embarassing. 1st i hav 2 wait abt 2hrs b4 kna panggil msuk blik ntvw, i was hungry n tired. Sampai sudah last2 atu giv-up dah kn ntvw, nada lg ada mood.

Sklinya dh msuk blik, my mood pick-up balik. Awal2 ntvw, evryting went welluntil durang tnya tema Perkhidmatan Awam. Dengan confidentnya ku jwb "P.A Mesra Pelanggan" ... Skalinya tekidum durang n ada yg ketawa. It turns out yg its a slogan bukan temanya! MALU berabis lah ku, giler ilang trus momentum ku. After dat ada ku na tjwb Qs durang....

*Moral of da story: mek sure ur info reliable...hehe

Moon Light

I love moon n stars. I love staring up da sky n watch the moon n da stars scattered all over da velvety sky above. I especially loved it when der s a lyte breeze caressing my skin. N da wind also makes da clouds move in a graceful dance basking in da nyte lyte with da backdrops of thousands of diamonds glittering, perfecting da natural landscape above us.

Allah Akbar! Betapa indah alam yang diciptakanya...

Dugaan...

Hmmm....mcm2 dugaan hapening rah ku l8ly. Last week i got sprained neck, nya my mom n ebry1 else yg ku gtau aku atu tkana 'selahau bantal'. Honestly, diz s da 1st tym i heard dat word. Ku cek rah nternet bru2 ani english term nya ialah "whip flash"...nada perkataan pillow (bantal) yg dgunakan utk me-explain sprained atu. Nway, selahau bantal ku ani hapen msa bru ku bngun tdur last friday(02-11-07). Sebenarnya aku atu kn 'melatup' kn leher ku dgn memusing-musing ke kanan ke kiri. sekalinya kesilahau tah plang.

Di pendek kn ceta, ku atu panik trus ku bwa be-urut rah aunt ku drimba yg klurusan ada org pndai ngurut sbalah rumahnya. Bukan nya makin baik, makin sakit ada... It hurt SOOOO bad dat i cant turn my head more than 40 degrees angle to the left. Imagine ku drive, tpaksa pusing badan lg mun kn mnoleh ke kiri. Tpaksa tah ku mngidap sakit atu utk beberapa hari. Ani pun msih lg ada ckit tpi alhamdulillah dpt dah ku toleh 180 degrees to da left... *chewah, ingat ku lagu Beyonce plang...~to da left, to da left. evryting u hav in a box to da left..~

Well atu last wk punya ceta, klinya diz wk, actually diz morning 2b exact, msa ku bngun prut ku sakit. Mulanya nda brapa, ku fkir kn ehem ehem sja.. Tpi stelah ku mlabur, sakit atu msih ada. N then lapas ku breakffast sakit ku mkin truk...cna ni. Palau susah ati ku. Ku gtau my abg ckap nya,

"boh, apendiks kli... Bek tah ko buat wasiat"

"Palau ko"...kata ku

Skalinya by tgh da pain was constant, sentiasa ada. Gnya sakitnya atu turun naik...skajap bearable skajap mbri kn mnangis. My fren lg mlagau opnhse arnd 2pm. kSian nda kn d aga. Nway, i sed to myself mun sakitnya ani makin teruk suk pagi, then i go to da hospital...wah, takutnya!!!

2 be cont.....(jeng..jeng..jeng..)

Part-time job...?!

07/11/2007-1055

Borenk eh my blog ani...mayb i can ask sum1 2 spice it up a bit. payah jua mun na pmandai IT ani.

Ok, byk issue kn ku ckap since 1st nov but for 2day ku kn ckap sal da part time job i was offered. . Next tym i talk abt a guy, a sprained neck n a datin...

Yday i went 2 diz 1 organization, dey kol me a day earlier 4 an ntrvw. I was realy xcitd, finaly m gonna hav a job! Dey told me 2 cum at 830am n wait at da lobby. Half an hour l8r, we still at da lobby n a number of ppl were getting restless.Finally arnd 910am we were sent to a room, its look lyk a board rm. B4 we were being ntrvwd, dey giv us a briefing of wat da job was all abt.

At first it sounded ok, it was a survey job-we go out der n find ppl to ask a bunch of Qs. Then dey told us da pay was $200 for 12 days, n i tot dat it sounds good. i was sure m gonna do da job. Then dey drop da bomb, da survey s more than 20pges long n it teks roughly 45 mnt to conduct..

WHAT!!...45 mnt? Seriously?! Sapa yg mau kna tnya Q utk 45mnt? mun sedara diri buleh lah, tpi durang target client yg non-fmaily..cna ni? Ku yg pernah kna ntrvw ani wah, mun 15mnt tu dh ku kpayahn, kn mjwb survey yg 2 pgs lagi ku kata2, ani tah kn yg 45mnt..

Then ku ingat my fren pernah kna sruh buat survey jua yg less than 20pgs, n da pay was $10 per survey. our job requires 9 surveys /day for 12 days=108 surveys smuanya. Which means, 54cent per survey,. Wahh...so not worth it lah!

Ok, mayb its my fault jua lah..nya org hendak seribu daya tpi tak hendak seribu dalih.. Mun kn bnar2 bkraja, buat sja lah kn.. Tpi, bnar2, personally, i dun tink its worth it lah. Tpi bgi sum ppl, its an ok job. I salute lah bagi yg mampu mbuat kraja ani...

My 1st post...!

Ola~...

My first blog... its been awhile since i wanted 2 create my own blogspot and 2day it finally hapen. Here i am surrounded by my 2 lovely frenz (phewiitt...) guiding on how 2 create diz blog. Honestly, m not realy a high-tech girl so m really not sure of wat 2 do next.

Dats all 4 now n welcome to my blogspot!

This pic was taken when i was aboard the mvdoulus n diz 4 'models' was quite eager 2 pose 4 my camera...n theirs also...eheh